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to be truthful (truthi?) most of my 'journaling' ends up as overly-personal posts on babycenter (working mommies june 2006), with the rest trickling cryptically into facebook.
and my yahoo blog is not cutting it anymore.

so there's your explanation, if you really needed it.

right now i am squinting at everything because i took my contacts out, and my glasses are still 'broken' (missing an eensie screw so the lens has popped out). no mattah, as drew's asleep in my bed (my idea) and all i intend to need to squint at is the computer monitor, an 'in touch' magazine, and my book secrets from the vinyl cafe.

got up this morning all a-grog. had an out-of-body shower and drove to work. some wet snow still on car. was late/not late, and dr. s was waiting at the door to the clinic upon my arrival. turns out he didn't have his keys and had come in for, like, 7:30am heh (started today at 8:30).
worked. was nice to be the only one on. we never fell behind, and i got an hour long lunch break (wendy's jbc combo because i felt like it).

work'd work'd work'd. talked with marty briefly. went against the rules and visited bbc and fb. answered 'you bet' each time someone asked me if i had a good christmas (seven hundred fifty). it mostly rained, but some snow was included in there. reminisced along with 24 hours on the year's top news stories and photographs.

drove home, stopping at the dizziness-inducing diagonal-aisle'd superstore for three heavy and awkward items (milk, tp, milk). rest of drive home was a breeze. once i got in, immed. boiled water for neo citran and more for dinner: KD with some celery and tomato chopped up and thrown in. turned out tasty! drew still didn't eat it, though.

drew was a sweetheart and spent time sitting/laying with me on the couch. we played potato head on the floor, and cars. big news of the day: i cut part of his thumb off (dad says was just skin; i say his thumb looks flat on top now) clipping his nails. why the hell did i use the BIG nail clippers?? laziness. i paid, and so did drew :( from bbc:

So I bawled this evening because I clipped Drew's thumb while cutting his nails. Blood welled up and he cried, but only for a minute or so. I think he ate the piece of skin when he stuck his thumb in his mouth. I called Dad to come upstairs, and lost it when he did - I feel so bad for hurting my baby! Drew was fine, but started crying again because I was. It was hard to stop.
Forget it, I'm never cutting his nails again!! :(

at 7:30pm i took gave drew a bottle, snuggled on the couch, then took him up to my bed. i'm glad he eventually fell asleep, because i sure did quickly! woke up just after 9pm and after hooking up the monitor, here i am.

compelling, i know. such is my life.


i will say this, however: after 5 days off, going back to work felt crappy. i've really enjoyed this time off with drew and my family. i miss him so much when i'm at work; i feel guilty doing anything w/o him after i'm home (gym etc). maybe this is another push toward me being a SAHM once i reach maternity leave after the wedding. maybe i'll go crazy again at home. maybe it won't matter, because sfu might let me into their pdp program 'once i have enough money'. now we're into futuretalk, and i could go on, but i shan't.
because i just said "shan't".