goah,

dan in real life made me cry. it wasn't at all what i was expecting. it wasn't about a single dad trying vainly to protect his teenage daughter from adolescent male wiles. it was a heartwrenching look into star-cross'd lovers positioned against the backdrop of a touching family portrait.

end quote: i miss my mom. oh God, so. much. it rips me up inside tears a seam right down my middle. and it will never go away which is a wondrous and excruciating thing.

today

next day:12 avril
i remember the dream i had 2 nights ago
semi-lucid
where i would look at something and my arms would turn that colour/pattern. like camouflage. like a squid. i remember that turning them green was the hardest, because it was the least-closest to my natural skin colour. it took more concentration. i remember i could even get my skin to turn purple with white polka dots! i'm not sure if my entire body turned that colour, or just my arms because they're all i could see. was a cool feeling that has stuck with me!

april 11 2008

I am on round two of reducing my a/d meds. Gone now from 1 full tablet daily to just over 3/4. It's day, like, 6 or something. A few more to go before I'm down to 3/4 solid. Am feeling it indeed, testy little meds! Got a cold from Drew on Saturday so that distracted me for the most part. But managed to run 6k last night at Seashore [Rocky Pt] Park! Felt kinda like I had overextended myself afterward. I'm hoping I can make it through the 19th after the Sun Run, and that the following Monday I'll be okay as that's the day I start volunteering at the elementary school! :D :O (excited and scared)