Well, honestly, what's the point of a blog if I only report the GOOD, and leave out everything else? A FARCE THAT'S WHAT

So, in that spirit, here's some boring old honesty (but I'll write it in a here's-what-happened-to-me-today way, rather than stating my emotions outright):
This morning, I weaseled my way into sleeping in a bit, during which I had a horrible dream. Marty got me up, I crammed breakfast into my face, and we took Drew to his field trip - gymnastics. I drank my coffee on the way. We didn't stay to watch (Marty: "We paid a lot of money for this free time!"), instead, we drove to nearby IKEA where we woke Leila up by putting her carseat on a shopping cart. We stopped at the 'bistro' (? or is that the upstairs restaurant) where Marty ate 2 hotdogs and a cinnamon bun (happy breakfast!) and I got a coffee, which we shared. We checked out the AS IS section, and finding nothing really there for our (poor-ass) purposes, went to look at textiles. I think the long curtains we want for the living room are $49 (but why does $29 stick in my head?). Then we quickly shot upstairs to check out computer desks. I found a soon-to-be-discontinued basic one for $69, and Marty liked it. We didn't buy anything today, but it was good to get that scouting out of the way before our actual trip on Friday. We were a bit late picking up Drew. On the way home, Marty and I were ha-ha-annoying each other. At home, Marty laid on the floor, with his right shoulder in a lot of pain. I massaged it, gave him some robaxacet, and we sat on the floor as a family. I started to feel really down really quickly. Marty got ready for work with Drew (playing the MOMMY IS A DRAGON game). When he left, I cried a little bit.

It's raining now, after many days of sunshine. Marty said he wanted to keep in touch with me today, and he said many nice things before heading out the door. Shortly after, he texted me I LOVE YOU :) Just seems like it's going to be a looooooooong day today.

I fed Leila, ate some healthier-than-usual lunch myself. Got Drew some food. Then I bounced Leila down, as her morning nap had been very short. She took a long time to calm down and fall asleep. She woke up when I put her down in our bed. I find I am getting less and less patient with that routine. I look forward to her being in her crib but I know it's going to be a painful process to get her in there (or down anywhere at all without nursing her down). I still don't like thinking about how it was with Drew, way back in 2007!

So here I am, Marty just began work 41 minutes ago (sigh) and I told myself I am going to:
- finish cleaning the bathrooms (partway done upstairs one)
- go to step 1/2 at 5:30 (even promised Drew we'd do this)
- mail my EI medical form (and Ange's cheque)

But all I wanna do is play cards, I mean, sleep. Hide. Find something quickly to make me feel better instantly. Unfortunately, the only thing that comes to mind is chocolate - and as of last night, I'm fresh out.

So there it is. Boring, way-too-detailed honesty. Going to rest on the couch now, while L naps and D watches another cartoon. Blaaaaaaaaaah.