dreamt

winnipeg, for a weekend, really to visit grandma neil but i didn't end up doing that (later, i lucidly tried to arrange a subsequent trip for this purpose)

hospital. be-a-nurse-for-the-day.

a very large, very loud nurse was married to john krasinski, who was not happy. it kind of was a movie - the quitter and [some girl's name]. steakhouse restaurant. oh, john was a doctor or a nurse at the hospital, too.

i was trying to shirk my nurse responsibilities, because i was shy and because i was afraid of the big sterilization machinery up on the rooftop. hahaha. but the head nurse found me and we were dumping out laundry bins and she came across a thank-you gift card from a discharged patient. the gift card was for the winnipeg ballet, a dinosaur one lol. the head nurse gave it to me, sort of.

the idea here was that john krasinski and i were going to go to the ballet together, and be voted 'king and queen of the ballet' due to our true love.

it was all kind of messy because of the lucidity. so not all that cohesive. but the point is, last night, before falling asleep, i was telling marty of how much i love him, and am thankful for him, and i promised him i'd never leave him.

then i dreamt about needing a divorce from him.



sigh.

wups

i gotta stop posting on the wrong blog.

you didn't miss out on anything, though.

Out for Game 6 tonight

I really missed my phone. We had left it with Joe, who was babysitting the kids.

The clarity is startling.

I miss the smell of the farm in early morning.

Benylyn

All these imaginary conversations, they're hurting my cheeks.

Just waiting at the bus stop

I'm so thankful to be out of the house, by myself, I feel like laying stomach-down on the sidewalk in gratitude and freedom.

Ewwwwwwwwwww

That good ol', down-home crunchy feelin.