didn't think anything of the sess

about half an hour ago, i go OH GOD MARTY! Drew starts school again in the morning! And fretfully set my alarms back on for all this week. Ahahahahahahah. 


In other news, these reg (supersalted)tostitos may have just pickled my lips. 


oh man, and then in comes the zopiclone, and i got one mini lindt-ball left in front of me! perfect! takes care nicely of the anxiety/paranoia i felt about getting up on time, doing the right things in the right order, breakfast snack oh god. it'll be okay, though. i asked marty to work with me so we'll do it together, and once Leila and i drop Drew off at school it'll be just like a normal back-to-work/school day. :)


i smile to force myself to feel optimistic about this! and tomorrow! okay!!
- notices to go home to parents
- more involvement with the pac
- can reg habit of go exercise right after with L in the eileen dailly childcare (til noon)
wow!!!


my necx is so loose today. right now. that is. i,'m looking around , head swinging, and i'm all 'dat laundry aint gettin folded tonite yawl. juss way it is.'




ask me tomorrow, i say this is a bad idea. ask me now, i think, fuck why hte fuck not? right? esp if you got some good shit done in the day, like my run! wow big! srsly. and costco rockin it. and CAPTURE THIS NOW I FEEL SOME HOPE ABOUT JOB AND BCIT AND SCHOOL AND WORK NAD HOUSEHOLD AND CRAFTS AND ETC MORE FITNESS YEAH@@@!!!!!!!!!!!!

prime noteO daily immersion in scripture and study guide, and prayer. that's the start of a good morning, prayer. usually The Lord's Prayer: Our father, who art in heaven, give us today our ........ this i shouldn't attempt right now. i have a bible out of my reach, and a post-it note next to my bed. so. i'll get back to ya on that :D


and an addendum about fitness: the monthly goal achievements lead to rewards, which will be of clothing in nature, lulu lemon, adidas, dresses, and the like. shit i deserve, becaus i will have earned, and will continue to look even better in as each workout goes by! :) :) :) 




tl;dr?


new year, new computer, new resolutions, hopfelly that's somehow math taht i will create more content for this blog. thanks for dropping by once n awhile, you our yous who do or does that :)


pease <3