That's a bad smell.

Double-flusher here! Oy.

Yesterday was mt day off. I have been wasting my non-work time lately, and as such, accomplished as much as my shitty back would take yesterday.
Oh wait, I DID blog abt this last night! Oh well. I wanted to add that I also bathed the grimy kids. Poor L & her unhappy skin on her legs; the hello kitty bandaids irritated sth awful :(

I hope they all have a good day today.

Fuck, I stink. Wish this had hit me last night instead of at work today. One immodium left after this here dose, then all I got is some questionable pepto tabs... gross.

Accomplish mental!

Both washrooms!
Some dishes!
Vacccuum living room!
Sort/prepare D's school supplies!

Yay :)

Also wrnt shopped mg, filled meds, n went to potluck ("mg") @ common tiim!

Hooray for finally not wasting a rare day off!

I love pooping!

Effin revisionist history dreams

I tell you, I've had enough of these involved reimaginings of my adolescent years.

O and

I'm still bleeding. 8 day period? ...

Gut

Why do I have to be so stressed about everything

Just starts with L crying, result of her stubborn 3-year-oldness. So I try and fix the situation but end up with diarrhea anyway. Then it seems like every little thing, every interaction whether it be between me and kids or me and marty just adds more cramping.

Fleh - a combination of 'bleh' and 'fuck'.

I had a shower

And now I feel 0.1% better. It was a self-loathing shower.

Is the only reason I want C&S to find God so I (we) can have more in common with them (again)?

Saturday

I worked at I. Good shift but stressful ending w a mistake I made w a customer (who was super awesome about it), and overall stressful cashout (even other cw's said). So I bought a 6-pack of 1516 on the way home. Me n M split it, had sess, had a good night :) I love M

Sun.

We lazed in morning. Didn't go to church :| I got dropped off at Mommykea. Worked til 7, fine shift. Not as stressful as last night. M n I engaged in, like, u know.. afterward.

K

Yesterday (mon) watered frontal plants, moaned that I'm tired of hearing abt everyone's vacations & camping while I just have to work all the time.

Then M said we should take kids & tj to white pine beach before I work, so we did :D M comforted me on way there, abt him feeling 'encouraged' to get a job etc.

Lake was niiiice. I swam n played w kids. Snacked n laid in sun. Wasn't rushed or stressful. Left for work w plenty of time.

Changed from bathing suit (n shorts) at tims. Worked deli, good shift, finished in time tx to I's help! She was training D. M n kids picked so tired & headached (sun, hormones, etc) me up and after a big bowl of cinnamon toast crunch, pretty much passed out on the couch.

A Mood So Terrible, The World Has Never Seen

Woke up after nightmares of spiders. Still waiting for period. So very, very grumpy. Headache is back.

More on Thurs 9th

Felt crappysad once at wrk but after abt 20 min, voila, perked up! Rest of shift was fine, energy good n high spirit! So day wasn't so bad after all :)

Friday the 10th

Got up & went to Dr appt. Had an unexpected talk abt perspective & basically, being thankful. Refilled my A prescript n made appt for 2 weeks. In theory gonna up my a/d by 30mg/day.

Cept when I got home, found that I actually have NO COVERAGE thru PS cuz is only for f/t employees! Ahh the confusion keeps getting messier. Talked to Lne abt possible 'solution' to my sched conflicts.

Vaccuumed & steamcleaned the front stairs & living room. No more L pee smell for me! I'm impressed I managed to get that all done, and a shower, and even a little nap, before work!

Worked 5:45-10 at I and it was good indeed. Came home to settlers players at my house. Price-matched a flyer and clipped a coupon. Read my book (A history of the world in 100 objects) before bed.

O monday

Was holiday. Worked both jobs. Not much else. H8 the fe at ps, at least, solid till shifts. I don't have it in me.

Few days

Lessee. Today's Thursday? I did not much 'cept reddit before work (2-8 ps fe), tho I did update my schedule in our g calendar.
Feelin sad abt schedule conflicts. Feelin again that this isn't sustainable for me. Expressed to M his working could alleviate that but mostly he was playing pokemon w kids.

Yesterday, I got up w L at her request n decided to make French toast! Mmm. Neither kid wanted any, of course. Let M sleep in. Hung outside w neighbours. Pushed L around on her bike while D, clad in pads, practiced on his scooter! M was grumpy tho so I suggested he go out for some time alone.
Unfortunately I got stomach ache and asked him to come home few hrs later :(

I didn't even make the stir-fry I had planned to, or get any housework done. After kids in bed, we had a tiny sess n watched breaking bad.

Day b4 that was tues - I went to a gym class finally! Power. Was good. Sore wed n today oy! Worked 5-9 n comforted a cw abt her upcoming first pap. Good deli shift. Earlier in day was just chill outside w neighbours n kids.

Alrite, time to go in now n piss everyone off by rto'ing my overlaps. Sigh.

Satursay

Got up requested coffee. Out of bed at 1041 iirc. Fairly lazed; had to reddit n fb on netbook as laptop is flying in the sky between here and Ontario.

Neighbours were holding another yard sale. Super hot out. Instead of going to gym :( I just shat the shot w them. Bought Royd's aquarium n some of Kathleen's sister's Christmas lights. Got anxious grumpy at inescapable heat so had a shwr them quick nap then I for work 5-9.
Good shift rly liking ppl there.

Bought cold beer (m-approved) on way home. Kids still up but whatev it'd so hot so no prob. In fact, l is on couch n d is on chair cuz is do much hotter here upstairs. 3 beers, no more.

And good evening and good night :)

Today

Got up 9ish. Was lothe to put clothes on. Wasn't rly hungry but ate miniwheats ne way. Drank lots of water for u/s but had 3 poos so I took some immodium. Went outside bit w kids. Started d/w. Laundry and hung outside as much I could. Watered deck plants. Went to u/s, quick but still... is my uterus supposed to look like that? Dr c will have results "after the long weekend". After, shipped laptop to ON for repair (hopefully under warranty), picked up few groceries n shared lumberjack sammuch w m.

Felt tired/yucky so snoozed on chair b4 wrk. Felt nauseous going in bit trucked thru it (I). Came home, m was watching "a serious man" n finished that w him, then we watched breaking bad. Now, sleep. :)

Yestersat

Worked 9-5. Home, snuggled w marty then showered n went to my board meeting. After, picked up kids from Beth's (m had gone to hockey) , they were pretty nuts. Eventually calmed down w me in the chair. Was just abt to take em into my bed (Ira's so vary tired) when m came in. We sorta shared bedtime then he came into bed. Said he was rly depressed :( "I give up."

tried to talk w him, soothe, etc n recommended he get in contact w steve. He msgd him but no response, so he just read on his phone while I fell asleep.

Wernsder

Got up n went to wrk @ecebc w toast n coffay tks to Marty. Filed nails down on a break. Wrkd til 5, being sleepy from 4-on. Drove home n w busy kids, m & I tried to get sum rest in, but 10min later his alarm went off for mission-potluck. O but I was so tired and apparently, so was L so we napped while m & D & TWO BLUEBERRY PIES M MADE FROM SCRATCH TODAY joined ppl at the lower park. Didn't stay too long cuz D needed bathroom. @ home I hesitantly got up in time for m to go to settlers. Kids mc vids then read/play time then bed, late for D but early for L. While spending too much time in b-room :( heard strange found that eventually figured out was fireworks from downtown :)

Downstairs, uploaded recent pics/vids and L still couldn't sleep so I put her in chair. M came home n took her to our bed where she is squishing me out as I write this :/