Thursday, April 23, 2015

Après mg

Last night
Was the second mg since COMING OUT and the one last week, I apologized for inadvertently hurting anyone by doing so via fb. 

Herewith, my msg to Dina abt it:

"No nap but I am exhausted! Just finished mission group ... Last week I "officially " apologized to the group abt any hurt feelings I had caused by choosing to 'come out' on FB... Don't know if I mentioned last week but we decided as a group to have conversations around relationships, commitment, etc etc for the next while, at our meetings. I need to thaw after tonight's discussion. Yeah of course I feel put on the spot, but I agreed to this and even though it isn't easy I'm going to stick with it unless it becomes too much. 

Running an Epsom salt bath now - my back is killing me. 

Love you honey. Miss you tons. It's ridiculous! Feels like it's been 3 weeks since we last were together 😭😗😗😗"

I note now that I experienced heartburn after I left (and leave u did, quickly, without M, citing pee-bursties which was not untrue). I took 4 tums REFRESHERS and tummy mellowed after relaxybath. 

This morn after dropping kids at school I notice belly burn. Diff than last night but I 2 tums anyway. 


Sigh. 

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

hello again

haha
this morning i was getting so mad at the honey

it's a 1kg bottle of liquid honey
or at least
it WAS liquid
but somehow when it gets down to about 250mL it decides to solidify
more and more each day

so i'm squeezing this ridiculous bottle out of shape and putting all my bloody strength into it
just to get a bit on Leila's bread for her lunch for school

so when i'm done
i decide the bottle needs to stay upside-down from now on
but the nozzle won't allow for that
(or neck, whatever)

so i grab a plastic cup out of the kids' cupboard and shove the honey bottle in there

leave it on the counter

take kids to school ... come home, am moving shiz on the counter to try and re-heat some coffee (o btw my last 'to go' cup [lid is long gone too] died today, its leakiness being no longer tolerable to me) and i grab an empty bread bag and pull it and the whole honey contraption falls over

fuck it
i just stick it on the stove


time for my reheated coffee.